Day Fifteen

Well now even my husband is amazed. I think he was shocked when he got home and I had had a great N day... for he has seen me many times extend weekend treats well beyond Monday ... even into ... yes the next year!

But not this N day ... oh no. This N day I jumped right back into habit.

I was grumpy. It is true. It was Monday.
I had too many things I had to do that I did not want to do.
It is true.
But that's no excuse for a chai tea latte ... for me an S day treat.
Not today sweetie.

Reinhard sez our hunger is an animal. I am certain that mine is a toddler.
A really sweet cute charming toddler with a cherubic smile and big blue eyes.
She is hard to say no to.
She will not relent until she gets a very firm and very definite ... no.

No S gives me the confidence and strength to tell her no.
That gives me the ability to refocus ... and watch ...
as discipline with my food and eating spreads like watercolor on wet paper
out into all the other areas of my life ...
and just as noiselessly...

It is now monday evening and I have finished dinner and eating for the day.
I get to put a nice big green square on my habitcal and that puts a nice
big smile on my inner toddler's face.

Life is good on No S.