the little black cloud of endless doom has lifted

Well today was day thirty and tomorrow I will assess and post the mathematical results of my journey on the NoSDiet so far.

What do I have to say for today?

Well mostly that the "newness" of it all has definitely worn off.

I seem to be into a routine ....

OH? Is that Habit?

Mostly I seem to be more busy with the things in my life that have meaning to me and I steadily seem to be growing more focussed on THESE things.

You know things other than ... what's the latest diet?

Or maybe I should just try that one, the one that worked that one time again.

Come on, you know what I mean.

Dieting, Restricting, Binging ... the whole thing just requires so much time and attention.

I am not sad or sorry to see it go.

I am certainly not experiencing greif at the loss of

ALL THAT.

No my life is just humming along, me just another one with all of you out there ...

walking my path, pursuing my dreams ...

the little black cloud of endless doom has lifted.

And while there may not be much newness left, there is definitely a lot more sunlight.

Photo: today's lunch - tofu sausage, green peas with EVOO, salt and pepper, mixed greens with cucumber and EVOO

My GREEN room Dream Come True Room

Well tonight is four weeks.

I had a really amazing weekend. My husband and I had a lot of fun friday night

watching a Boston Legal DVD.

I have never been a William Shatner fan, no trekkie here BUT

William Shatner IS JUST HYSTERICAL in Boston Legal.

That show is so off the wall, silly, fun and irreverent.

DENNY CRANE!

Then Saturday I painted my "work room" "room of my own"

GREEN.

I have wanted a GREEN room for years ... one of those things I

would think about but just not quite ever find the time or energy

to get around to doing.

But now it's Sunday evening and I have a beautiful GREEN room to

go to work in. YAY!

I think being on NO S, energy previously devoted to:

what I was going to eat, what I was not going to eat

the latest diet that works, the latest diet that doesn't work

the latest celeb tips, ok WHAT ARE THEY NOT TELLING US

eating too much, feeling wiped out sluggish and inert from eating too much

with all that OUT OF THE WAY ...

guess what, seems like now I actually have time to live ....

and apparently make one of my dreams come true...

A lovely lilting beautifully GREEN room!

photo: egg salad sandwich made with vegannaise and sprouted wheat bread with lettuce and red onion, petite carrots from the farmer's market

Donuts and Chai Tea Latte

All the years my husband and I have been married we have had little weekly rituals that we share.

Through the years they change, and we come up with new ones to replace the ones that have
worn themselves out.

A few weeks before I started No S my husband tried this little donut shop within walking distance from where we live. He told me the donuts were delicious.

They are.

It has been wonderfully fun for us to get up on Saturday and Sunday the past few weeks and walk over to the donut shop and then go on to Starbucks to get a chai tea latte for me and a coffee for him.

This simple pleasure is enhanced by the guilt-free bliss of S days.

Photo: chocolate cake donut, glazed twist and chai tea latte

The End of the Binge Eating Disorder and the Cutesy Jingle

"... you don't really believe that a huge, potentially crippling problem like being overweight or obese could be solved by a cutesy jingle. It can - ..."

Reinhard Engels, The No S Diet

When I read the No S diet book, there were so many things within it with which I could easily and absolutely agree with.

But not everything.

And those last two words of that quote "it can",

was a line in the sand,

a point of deep and utter skepticism born out of

a myriad and abundant other approaches in the past that for me had ...

not only held out false hope,

but also required huge skads of my time, energy,

self-esteem, money ... and/or pleasure

and let's face it ...

DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING

to end my rough relationship with food, eating and the physical sustenance that they are supposed to provide.

It is almost amazing that I dared hope ... AGAIN...

One More Time....

Of course, I am eternally grateful that I did... and I am coming up on the end of my

fourth week of Nosing and ...

well EVERYTHING about me and my relationship with food has been transformed ...

so now I can agree ...

with those two little words ...

IT CAN.

Photo: Today's lunch ... tofu, avocado, black olive salad in ONE BOWL, of course!

Bashful, Doc, Dopey, Happy, Sleepy and Sneezy ... where's Grumpy?

This is truly amazing! I have been nosing for twenty-five days and not only is my eating all ordered ... but I am having a psychological transformation as well!

I guess undereating, overeating, refusing to eat sweets, eating too many sweets, being holier than thou, being I don't care at all ... added up to a kind of schizophrenic and ... well....

pretty GRUMPY experience!

So now I am having a profound personality change or blossoming ... and

no more GRUMPY!

Where is that little dwarf, hiding under the bed, in the closet, in the back of the pantry, or maybe he has just run away from home.

All I know is that right now he is not front and center in my life.

YAY!!

So I have put up a photo of my monster one-plate breakfast that I eat about three days a week.